Pretty Wings
In October, I walked away from a 2 year, on-again-off-again, long distance relationship. Almost every time that I speak to him, he says that whenever he hears Maxwell's song, "Pretty Wings" he thinks of me.
Since October, I have had moments where I questioned my choices and my decisions, both in the relationship and in deciding to leave.
On Sunday, I was at my little sister's house. I picked up a book on her bookshelf and, in it, Iyanla Vanzant said something about knowing that you have done the best that you could have done in any given situation, based on who you were and what you had at your disposal at the time.
Think about it...
Sometimes, we do something and then we think,
"I could have been nicer..."
"I could have been more patient..."
"I could have tried a little harder to understand..."
But, the bottom line is...if you could have (and probably, even more importantly, if you truly wanted and/or needed to), you would have.
You Can't Fly with One Wing
Yesterday, on my flight from Barbados to NYC, I watched Sparkle for the first time. I found myself in tears...on a plane...with people next to me...but, at least, as Erykah sang...I had a window seat. (Silver lining in every cloud, eh?)
So...I'm watching and thinking what an amazing talent we lost in Whitney Houston (RIP) and how, sometimes, life throws some speedy curve balls at us...even though I know we are already standing with our feet planted wide apart and waiting with the catcher's mitt raised in our hand...sometimes, at least on a physical level, those curve balls still take us by surprise.
But, what can we do?
How do we make sure that we are ready for anything that life brings to us...for anything that we ourselves have created and set into motion?
First, we have to realize that many of us are not flying with both wings. Many of us are only half-wishing, half-believing, half-loving, half-living.
In my personal case, I can say that I recognize that I have never once given all of me to another individual. Not because I didn't want to...but because, I had yet to under-over-innerstand (that's some "ish Conscious people say" stuff right there...please indulge me) what "all of me" entails.
I know there are times when I could have done more, in every area of my life. I grew up in a household where NOTHING done half-assed was tolerated. Either you give your all, or you sit down and shut up. We don't understand what half-way is in my family. And yet...when it comes to relationships outside of the household, whether personal or business, I held myself back many times. That has proved to be detrimental to my possible growth and the possible growth of others.
And yet...it is never too late to make a change in our habits.
Commit to the Process
For 2013, I am fully committing to the process, whichever process/processes may arise.
I am taking more time to actively know more about everything I am passionate about and, at the top of that list, is ME.
There are so many aspects to my person and my Self that I have yet to acknowledge and/or unlock. In order to be free to fly my pretty wings (plural) around, I have to access as much of me as I can and I recognize that I cannot do that while doing the same things I have in the past or with the same thinking that previously kept me grounded.
Albert Einstein said that insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
Change something...anything...but, make sure it is a change for the better.
Commit to the process.
Be courageous.
Affirm: I commit to being the best me and doing all the work that it takes to achieve this.
Fly High!
Be Peace...Be Love...Be Better
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