Veggie Tales: Letting Go

I have learned in life that each moment, is just that, a moment.  A moment in the bigger picture of our journey and like all the moments that came before it, both good and bad, they worked to make us stronger and they worked to put us on the path we were meant to be on.

I can't believe it's been two weeks since my last update.  I almost wrote "since my last confession" but that would be the Italian Catholic coming out in me. I am an Italian Catholic from New York, with an Uncle Tony: No cliches there, right?  :)

I wanted to take some time today to apologize for being so distant the last couple of weeks.

I found it difficult to write the last couple of weeks. My Spirit was down and instead of dealing with it, I let it fester inside me to where I let it hurt my Spirit deeply and I let it bind me to the pain. I found that the more I tried to control the emotion, the more it began to take hold of my body.  Moments in which I had uncontrollable shaking in my hand and in my leg and I felt as though there was a constant pressure on my shoulders and in my chest.  It wasn't until I could release it that I could begin to let go of what I was feeling and I could begin to let what was right, back into my life and it wasn't until my body made it happen, that I began to feel a peaceful calmness in the core of my being.  My Spirit is much better now and a peace has taken the place of the fear, hurt, and frustration.  I have never experienced the kind of release that I had during this time.  It was overwhelming.

I felt like everything that was stuck inside, that had become a poison to my body, came pouring out of me in the most forceful uncountable tears and all at one time.  In that moment, I felt my most vulnerable, but just like that, all that I had been holding onto over the last several years, was released along with what I was facing most recently.  It was like my body knew what it needed to do for me to be whole again and for my Spirit to be where it use to be, where it needed to be.  In all my years, I have never felt that much emotion at one time.

I wasn't sure if I was going to share this part or not in my weekly journaling, but I decided to do so because I know, that we all go through emotional moments and struggles, and some times when going through those difficult times, it can throw us off track from what we are doing for our overall health, and,  I know that my journey into being a RAW Vegan is also about the journey of personal understanding and healing as well.

I am happy to say, that even in the midst of the things that are coming down around us, I have stayed the path I started on as a RAW Vegan and did not fall into old eating habits and I did not let myself hold onto the internal self destructive habits that have been a part of my life prior.  I finally decided to deal with it head on and I released it.  In doing so, I also began to look to my past to understand the role it has in my reactions to things and the fears that I have.  I know that if I can overcome that and I can continue down this healthy path of eating, I know that I can have a healthy body and mind so that no matter what happens around me, I can be at peace and know that I will be O.K.

Peaceful Healthy Longevity
Mary Anne

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About our Veggie Tale Blogger

Mary Anne is the owner of Ailgif Studios, Ailgif Media, and Ailgif Memories.  She lives with the love of her life, she is a mother of two grown sons, a mother in-law to two daughter in-laws, and a Nonna to a sweet little granddaughter.  She is a photographer, videographer, and visual anthropologist with a degree in Mass Communications and a minor in Anthropology.  Her primary focus is in documentary photography and ethnographic multi-media projects for an applied purpose. Mary Anne's work as a photographer and videographer has been used by advocacy groups and health organizations to bring awareness to social issues and chronic health issues. She also provides her skills as a photographer to low income individuals in her community who are in need of photography services.

To contact Mary Anne email: maryanne@ailgifstudios.com

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